friends and lovers

what a transitional time for relationships.

geeze.

people physically and/or emotionally coming and going. 

it's too much. I don't know if my little heart can take it.

I wish I ya'll could just take a minute....and slow/calm the fuck down, and take a minute....with me.

we could go to the park and lay on our backs and be ourselves....

just for a minute.

dayum

oh jesus christ,


it feels like it's been a awhile, but I guess it hasn't been that long.



"Longing" is back and in full force. Still doing that thing where I want all these things BUT am still able to realize what I do have and accept that it's good enough for now.
It's almost harder, though, to finally realize your awesomeness and know that what you want is actually what you deserve and still not know how to achieve it.
Self-realization is a real bitch sometimes.
Self-awareness can be devastating.
But I guess I'd rather know than not...know.

Oh, but, indifference and apathy....that's the real kicker.

one month to the day.

it was fun while it lasted!

sometimes I get so excited about something that I truly feel like my heart is going to explode into a million little pieces and even the prospect of that is exciting because how incredible would that be?

Being 7 feet away from my friends while I'm 7 feet close to them is sometimes the nicest.

However, being 400 miles away from someone you want to be 7 feet away from just sucks.